Last night, I had such a special conversation with Jac at bedtime. I was telling him I had to head downstairs to lead a call for my team, and he asked me why I had to work at night. I told him that I work because I enjoy it and because I love helping people, and that I’m so lucky that I have a job where I can be with him and Jessa all the time and mostly get my work done when they sleep.
Jac is the most sensitive kid and every emotion shows right on his face, so it was so sweet to see how happy he was that I was so thankful to get to be with him all the time. <3 We then wound up talking about how I never thought I would be the kind of mom who was home with her kids all the time. I always loved working and was very career focused. It never even crossed my mind to be a stay at home mom.
Thankfully, as some of you now, I had the biggest blessing in disguise experience that led me to finding what was right for me. When I was 9 months pregnant, I was laid off from my teaching job. We had just bought a house and a second car, and I was so scared at what it would all mean for me and for us and how we would keep up with our new life.
Fortunately, when I finally got to see Jac’s sweet little face, it made me feel like it was worth taking a risk for. Actually, it was the first and only interview I went on when he was a couple of weeks old that sealed the deal for me. The job was perfect. I could tell they were really interested in hiring me. It was a perfect match, but as I sat in the parking lot after the interview, I called Jeff to check on Jac since it was my first time away from him, and I could hear Jac screaming in the background. It was probably the hormones, but at that moment, I told myself I would never leave him again to go to work. I promised myself I would do whatever I could to remain at home with him for as long as I could.
5 years later, I’m still home with him, and I’m thankful every day that I got laid off. You never know what window will open when a door closes. You never know how your perspective and priorities will change.
I still am career focused. I still like to work. I just want to be with my kids all the time too. Luckily, we live in a day and age where if you want to have all of the above, you can. Is it easy? No. Is it worth it? YES. And I would never want it to be any other way. <3
When I saw Jac’s face last night and how much he appreciated me finding a job that allowed me to be with him all the time, I was just so touched by how thankful he was! Is this for everyone? No. But it is perfect for me? YES. #thankfuleverysingleday